siiiighh.....*cough cough

yeah, so i almost went to the hospital last nite. couldn't breathe.

shouldn't mix: sickness + resurgence of cat allergy + 7 degree air temperature = an asthma attack that was extremely uncool.

of course, i didn't expect allergy to cat to come back, and so harshly (why, why, why do i like girls that have cats? irony it would seem.) and the cold was just til we caught a cab.... but yeah.

not breathing = extremely not fun at all.

i feel a little better today, but its taking a while to clear it up. i should probably hit up the doctor, but my cousin who said he would take me.....is nowhere to be found. wish he'd pick up the fone. not that sitting in a walk-in clinic for an hour or two sounds like fun or anything.

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yeah, i could go for some magic spells or Em's hospitality right about now. But i don't got em. all i got is me. and i'm doing what i can.

i've not a good idea where to look up magic spells. been the stumbling block all along. itd be my idea that that kind of information would be the likeliest candidate for the highest level of protection, or at least extremely high. it being lost notwithstanding.

the internet is getting progressively more and more worthless for information. why? its sick. infected. with money.

i wouldn't be surprised to find out that in some past life, i invented money just to fuck with people, only to get reincarnated to be the victim of it too. lol! what a story that would be.

but yeah. for some reason, plane tickets out of this state are expensive. but i'm gonna save up enough for one, regardless. fuck toys, i can get toys later.

it hurts to live at the moment, so lets all go live where angles fear to tread and the demons leave their dead.

ok that just sounded cool, but i don't know what it means. im gonna go find something to watch that i've more than likely watched before. i JUST watched LOTR again, so thats out of the picture. i'll probably watch a potter flick, unless i magically find something else. too bad this computer doesn't have a good enough connxtion for The Fix that missed last nite. lol.

oh well. i got what i got. and what i got is sickness, and an indomitable will to survive. fight!