humiliation

/brand spanking used/

thats what i was, perhaps, straight up abusified.

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sometimes i don't know if i should be a nice guy, an asshole, or both.

seriously. i missed something, thats for certain, bc all the deja vu stopped, and so did the rest of it.

wack.

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i need to get back to the gym. i need to go put air in the bike tires outside. brb.

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i listened to swing music for like 4 records worth this morning. and atlantic jazz. for the sake of all that is holy, go listen to morphine. its dirty swing jazz. i love it more than most right now.

i wish i had gotten to see them live. too late now. (lead singer died. OD, lol, of course. band called "morphine" here)

PPS: i was writing in this interesting script i started using for some reason. just a font, so to speak, not a different language. it definitely looks completely opposite of my chickenscratch quickhand. its somewhere between fancy and relaxed. weird.