1.618

seriously, the use today of the most useful facts available leaves me with a film of disgust slowly rusting away any trust i have in given information whatsoever.

there are constants at work in our universe that cannot be described as numbers because they are not numbers, they are operations, and therefor also operators. Why do Pi and Phi go on forever? Because they are possible conspiratorial social tracking metaphors? Or because as representatives of operations, they are therefore numbers in motion and when you try to write them down you won't ever stop if you're waiting for them to finish. It's like another familiar forever-operation; dividing something in half. (or as an operator, Division).

So as an operator that is still somewhat describable as a constant, Phi is an operator for Growth, which is different when compared with addition and multiplication because it's more like an exponent that is an x+fraction of itself (>100% multiplicator). Like a ribbon, any one location can be a start point, and therefor everything on that ribbon is defined as relative to anything else on that ribbon, because in a derivative sense they are all defined as one ribbon anyways.

so because constants can be described as operators, and constants would be viewed as shapes (3d in volume but 2d in core structure and 1d in motion 'forward') in a 4d perceived time experience, operations would be perceived as interactions between shapes. Being able to purposely organize operators and constants for a desired result would be godlike. Its mathematical construction would resemble some archaic organic spell. And the shape of Growth would be possibly what the shape of the universe we live in would look like from some magical outside perspective you would need some ultra fifth dimension (or possibly ninth) to even experience and is probably only ridiculous conjecture. But i digress no further except to mention that it probably looks like one of those impossible to hold soap&glitter filled plastic donut-tubes only with a vortex like twist to the motion. (All we would see of a "galaxy" would be the butt-hole starfish end of one of these forever rolling in on itself tubes.)

Phi, or the golden ration, resembles exponential growth, so a spiral shaped shell would be described as having a constant growth rate. Phi written down is impossible when any limits regarding space are present. And since space = time, growth supersedes time, and when you think about it that way its completely obvious because growth would have to supersede time because it's an operator; by having an effect on the progression of a defined space going through motion, it would be akin to lensing some light, ie an operator. since the simplest orientation is Direction (a ray) these rolling tubes would progress only along direction, the representation of a 2d object in 3d, which is the same as getting music stuck in you head. Little do you realize that for some reason the notes in sequence for that snippet of a song that stays in your memory is because they somehow resonate within your current cognitive operational hum. If your rate of thought was defined as a hollow object, the notes of that song stuck in your head would be described as rays bouncing around on the inside, but because they would have to be resonating, there would only be so many paths that allowed for resonation (depending on the shape of the hollow shell). So if you sliced through this object with a flat surface (say like slicing a tomato), the paths of resonation would resemble a shape that would look the same regardless of how you sliced it (unlike a tomato whose slices look different depending upon the orientation before slicing.)

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The shape would look like a mandala, different for a particular frequency. If you were looking at a progressive 3d waveform head-on, it would look like a fractally propogating mandala. Frequency interference would be how to achieve purposeful results.

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its 4am and this town i'm in has done something both unexpected yet not unwanted though its late arrival doth sour mine composition. i've been here 2 years, and in this form for 25 or so. I've made plans to leave and am ready to do so by my targeted departure date a month from now. A woman i have regarded before as transcendentally beautiful and dubbed 'puller of heartstrings unkown' has recently been interacted with and found to be not only absolutely as beautiful as suspected upon closer inspection but a possesor of such fine and particular personality to be considered beyond mere 'puller of heart-strings' but full-fledged soul-completor. And then in some cosmic joke she's indiscernably 4 years my senior and married with kids; all hopes that those kids she was walking down the street were merely being babysat dashed like so many spartan weakling babies. LOL but the best part is not only does none of that matter because not only do here kids rock despite not being of my loins, and not only is she so pretty that age cannot wane her, and not only do we move to the same rhythym, but i like her....another person that grabs me by my soft inner parts and with my overflowing love doth i happily lavish attention upon.

WTF!

i create the future by summoning the present; and therefor i plan goals of the future by controling what i summon to the present. What i summon further defines how i summon.

i can be whatever i want. does it help to fall in love with a person i never suspected falling in love with, and furthermore is it any better for it to happen so late in plans for geograpical relocation? Can i even afford a wife and 2 kids? does that matter?


i personally feel like i would be letting myself down by not being the most i could be, and that means being aware of not only my happiness and feelings but equally also my effect upon my environment and my fellow humans. Being a poor father to two awesome kids and an amazing wife would leave me feeling guilty or foolish, whilst being a single girl-recycling super villain possibly with an island and some manner of harem might leave me empty inside instead. what to do....

i know what i need, what i want, and that theres going to be unknowns regardless. I can see down some paths, and even then only to a certain degree. Do i marry? all of the current social practices boggle my mind to their supposed superiority to any other method of interaction and i see marraige as really just another legal tax-break, like a corporation. That's why prostution and gay marraige are so popularly illegal; it would destroy the point of having corporations as opposed to individuals because everyone and their mother would be registered as either a whore or a pimp and the lowest tax bracket would move from individual to corporation. (conversely, everyone and their brother would be legally married to someone just to get a tax-cut, and there wouldn't be any individual joe-sucker to tax anymore, and the loss would be just too gruesome for the growth expectations of our current economic model, which oddly enough as a shape would look like a giant black hole.

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We have the capability to terraform our own planet into ultra paradise kingdom for transhumanity. We just need to get off our lard-asses and do it together. Unfortunately getting along together would preclude some sort of constitutional nasty list of Things We're Not Allowed to Argue About Anymore like land. wtf. You can't use the argument that that pile of rocks is your holy place and that means you're allowed to kill people over it. Sorry, not buying it anymore. You're not allowed to use the argument you think that guy has too big a gun in his pocket or he's got too much of a good resource so you can invade and wage war upon him. Nope, not buying it anymore. We take all this time we have to think about our neighbors pressing down on us and shrug it off knowing that they too are terraforming where ever they are towards the aims of living in a paradise of their own creation. we carry our holy places in our hearts, not in our pockets. We show our respect for our fellow man with our eyes, our hands, our mouths! Our environment is the permeable essence enveloping us all, providing us with common ground and allowing for encouraged negotiations.

ugh i have to open and want not to sleep but know i must.

adjourn doth I for aspirations to continue anon with some gesture of sanity and health.