alternate futures with common destination.

dusty nations?

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of late i find mine wit short; my hand ill at ease with nothing to good to write about. my disgust further limitates my vocabulary into involuntary shrinkage. fallacitude isn't a word either, but it describes the idea pretty well.

the apology of a deadman is somehow hollow and unfulfilling. It chews and swallows like the real deal but it satiates naught. And since we all die, we should never have to apologize to each other because we all know its worthless. The only way you can get along is by having forsight and creative prevention techniques. Acceptance of all of one's self, even the demons, provides the best foundation.

People have and continue to kill each other. By no means has ANY group of human beings managed to convince the entire group of total human beings that killing is wrong. Its not. Its part of existance as a human, at least. So we should treat the action like any other; with knowledge, respect, responsibility, creativity and feeling(empathy). Hiding it from the world like some ugly scar or disease only blinds us to it, making us ignorant to the cause of wounds it delivers. Its part of being a human, a list of things that should be explored further. As a living human being, you have an effect on your environment and every other human being and probably form of life in your vicinity. (At least a vicinity that can't be defined by any singular locality.) This should be taught to new and old humans. Every breath and step and thought you take is leading into something else. Sometimes you aren't involved with an action of yours until after a certain point, so you can feel direct effects of your actions or you don't. And probably somebody else does instead. I'm not saying you eat a piece of candy and a log of babies gets tossed on a fire, but you can pretty much bet that if you throw that baseball its gonna land with a smack somewhere. Might not be you, but it just might as well be anybody else.

As a group of human beings that all exist on the same level as eachother, as look alike beings who are all pretty much attatched to eachother and work best as units and teams, we then would all benefit from knowing how to do anything and everything. Even at this point in time, whatever day it is 2:55 in the morning, there is a lifetime's worth of information for any one person to learn and the organizational requirements needed to make it available to everyone, hopefully all the time. But ridiculous ideas like Good and Bad, Right and Wrong need to be left behind. This doesn't work, obviously, and to me it seems like the only thing spurning contestations forward as dissenters among otherwise honest and noble thoughts. To be taught awareness of actions and their following consequences would lead to more wisdom being put into actions without any more hassle than doing it without. To be made aware of the unknown is a greater defense than ignorance, so we should proceed with learning as part of being human. We all learn and adapt. We are not so much like insects in that we only specialize in one thing, but that we can specialize in anything, and often in multiplicity. A human population having followed this for a few generations would all be made of people specializing in all sorts of amazing combinations, like Medical Technician Monster Truck Driver who plays in a band with a Dive Instructor Carpenter Monster Truck Driver and Musical Composer Chef Ship Captain Roboticist God Commando.


lol, i digress. the point is teaching that we die and for pretty much any reason, and even other people are included. So be careful and be good enought to either protect yourself or keep capable company.

We simply start with the most important ideas and activities, the ones i presume would be useful for an entire human lifetime no matter how extended, and go from there with whatever the individual wants to learn. To accept all of our natures as parts of ourselves is the most important way to get along with everyone, because then we can live our lives with all these things in full view.

My transhumanistic view is important to me, all i've ever wanted was to grow and learn and experience, and then i found that was improved by doing it with other people. So i want to lead a group of people to grow and learn as i do. I know i am just another possible future with the same destination as everybody else if i'm not careful. The land of the dead sounds like a 2 hour movie. I don't want to be stuck in some afterlife that's only 2 hours long and full of zombies. Unless i get a sword or something, that would be kinda cool. Last 2 hours and you get to come back.

But yeah, i'm in an odd mood this evening. My retrospect includes a good view of the steps i've taken in pruning myself successfully, and i feel enabled to continue!

I saw one of the most beautiful women ever again yesterday at the park. She was farther away but she's of conspicuous recognizeability and i knew who she was immediately despite the distance. I also knew she could see and would probably recognize me as well, and i was well aware i was also half naked and freshly bronzing in the sun. Little was i surprised, though i was greatly excited to see her return to the bar after the 6 months since last time this evening. This lady is of great remark to me because she captivates me on some base level i cannot even begin to describe, and also because of how she looks at me. It is so magnetic, she strayed never far from where i sat and we had for once a nice long conversation, getting to know eachother a little bit. It was a horrible time and place for a conversation because of how loud karaoke night is, but it went pretty well. I cannot forget to proclaim the majesty of her eyes, green rimming pools of black baring such intensity i could hardly fathom anything else standing against her for long. A symmetry of symphonies outline her grace sufficiently. If she was a bell that gave off light then she hummed a soft brightness. Something clicks with this person that i knew i had within me but hadn't been clicked yet, and i feel a rise in confidence that i was right about it all the time i wondered if the idea was even real. So now i can recognize it, but that comes with the cost of waiting for it again, or does it? Whilst this lady captivates me so is of no import when it comes to the reality that shares her home. I'm sure i wouldn't break up a marraige to benefit myself, no matter how unhappy. But that doesn't mean i wouldn't let it happen if she was into the idea of doing anything with me. I leave here in 30 days. This is an opportunity. But its not only my decision to make, so lets see how it goes. I am fine with the knowledge i have gained that things i knew were real but have yet to all be in one girl do actually exist. But my extended experience of only wonder where this wonder girl was has started the idea that i might have to settle for just a few of the great things i would want in a partner. And this one i have found here....

is dangerous. And its a real part of being a human. I feel like this, and i have heard similar experiences from other people, further bulstering my belief that its real and part of being a human. Teaching it would be delicate, i would imagine. I wonder how it would fare on par with the way we talk about it now in hushed reverence. Someday you might click with someone and you'll just know it, probably. Remember to keep a cool head at least every now and then, even if that means leaving the exuberantly intoxicating presence of the other person when needed. Also, it might happen with more than one person. If this happens, things can get ridiculous if people you are in love with don't accept eachother on some level. Good luck.

I am aiming to do my best here but not pass up anything good.