an astounding array of internal organs am i!

its been longer than usual between posts.

i've had lots of stuff on my mind.

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some magical allergies have gone away. I can eat strawberries and eggs again. i didn't find this out at the same time. i wonder who the fuck invented food allergies, i mean really. and why the fuck did i suddenly became allergic to some of my favorite foods, only to have them flutter back and forth between Foods that Shan't Be Eaten to Safe to Consume.

whomever invented the pineapple had such an astounding sense of taste to create something to tasty. if i was flying into the stratosphere to save the planet from some doomsday device, and someone had a pineapple up there, i'd stop and eat it on the way. This is to illustrate that no matter what, i would probably take a pineapple break should the opportunity arise.

it saved my ass at work today. not that i didn't like work, it was just i didn't want to be there. theres an electronics depot up here that sells parts for cheap (10 cents for a cap instead of a dollar at radioshank) i want to build this stuff now. that and we were short people on the line again. always lame to do more work than you have time for. (the tickets at my station today were coming out of the machine faster than i could rip them off and hang them up. This is my average day, and i'm not exaggerating one bit. my boss keeps advising me to slow down, but it goes against my nature when im trying to get X amount of work done.)

i've had so much in my head the past few days i couldn't possible get any of it out right now. suffice to say, i've felt very weird today, and yesterday. I realized why im so "on the edge" all the time, and its a PATHETIC reason, in my opinion. then again, one of my big faults is being too hard on myself. i can take it though.

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i kinda feel like i need a hug, a real one. ya know, the from behind hug with a cheek pressed up against yours kind of gentle squeeze. i've not had one of those in so long i've forgotten what its like. not the kind you ask for, the kind that sneaks up on you and makes the world melt away. that kind of hug. ah well.

soon enough. most self-made attempts at waiting seem to backfire, so now im all about moving things ahead, but some of those backfire too. so after that it became not involving myself with it, as if it wasn't my business.

yeah. i don't remember where i was going with this post. perhaps ill get an email! i love stories! and friends, aw man! i <3 friends hardcore! EVERYTHING is better with friends around. If i was to die, itd be better if some friends were there. whether its a tv, coffee table, or fire, its better with friends. even things as potentially bombastic as sex is lame when by yourself.

now you know why the 2nd song on teh new tool cd is my favorite, followed by the 5th one.... :) then the first one but only because i've heard it so much....but i love the final lines of the first song. i would engrave it on something. "i live while the whole world dies.....much better you than I!" fuck yeah! sounds kinda harsh, and makes much less sense if you read it as an epitaph...but seriously. Yeah.

goodnite.