They let ANYONE in here!

OK this happened, get over it. I won. Who cares about the avengers, unless its Thor.

i like those lyrics Em, wonder what the song sounds like.

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So you just missed an entertaining post by me because i went to take a shower in the middle of it. And lost it. Dammit.

I wanted to share something i came across last nite, something i came up with rather. But now i feel silly, really silly after trying to research any physics backup for it and not finding any yet. And i feel even sillier because i'm not sharing it and i keep stalling.

So it all started with me laying on teh couch thinking of boobs. I compared my ex girlfriends sizes and compared their sexual competence, if it made them better or more enjoyable. Then i started thinking about...wait no this was work earlier today.

You missed the anecdote about me and a japanese jet pilot on vacation i met in the bar. OK he was an airline pilot and he was "working". But jet pilot sounds cooler when you're a sunbathing island whore.

Right, so it all started with me laying on the couch thinking about the lyrics to Jambi, the second song on the tool cd. Wait, let me go get it so i can listen right now...OK i got it.

You also missed some other shit, whatever. OK back to the story.

So it all started with me laying on the couch rather stoned, thinking about the lyrics to Jambi, the second song on the new tool cd. particularly "breathe in union" and "until the two become one" "divide me then i might as well be gone". I was thinking about how i used to, still do rather, breathe in unison with someone i'm laying with, just because it feels cool. Then it popped into my head about how i, and others do apparently, pick up on other peoples habits and such. Especially you are around alot. Shit being around Nick and working with him provided us with a really similar wavelength. Things like that, i wondered if it had to do with the breathing in unison thing. Then i realized that both parties were partaking of eachother, so i thought of them like two different vibrating bodies. Which brings me to what i was thinking about all day.

I thought of a person as like a bell with another bell inside them. Their outside bell was the one that was always ringing constantly with the sound of their soul. The bell on the inside was capable of ringing at any tone at all, kind of like a reciever for the sounds from other sources. Say like a rod with two prongs, but both prongs could vibrate at different frequencies, but both part of the same rod. Then i figured it was just a human thing, it was a matter thing. Any piece of matter would behave the same way, it would have its "shell" that gives off vibrations, and a "bell" that receives vibrations from other pieces of matter. So what happens when you get two things together and they both vibrate together and absorbing eachothers vibrations at the same time? In my mind it seemed that there would be an energy output of sorts, as they both reached equality and started to resonate, some sort of spike would occur. Sounds like total ridiculous daydream baloney (sp: bologna, i know.) I went to go look up about sound waves and frequencies and what happens when you put two together etc. I looked up resonating frequencies and objects and what happens. I found out a little about what happens when you vibrate two things at the same frequency.

I was thinking of it in this sense: if you aimed say a frequency emitter of some sort, directional, and pointed it at say two different objects, but at the same frequence for both so you had both objects vibrating at the same, ultra high frequency (because it has do with factors of their resonating frequency for both to get them to vibrate at the same frequency) what happens? I wondered if this was the Hutchison effect where he managed to merge different things together. In that fusion experiment recently they used sound waves to seperate the atoms and leave small vacuums inbetween. I wondered about this whole idea of two bodies acting as resonant emitters type things and once coming in sync with eachother what happened. I know it started with it as a social idea thingy, about how people interact and absorb parts of eachother, but it seemed to make sense in that it would be reflected in nature by means of being part of the construction of this universe. That being objects have two different "parts" that vibrate and can do so at different frequencies. In people i thought it would be their souls or something as the second "part" that has do with the mind or whatnot. wow i feel like a wacko right now. I also feel like i sound really, really dumb about what im trying to think about. I don't want to be dumb, i don't want to be the person making assumptions about things i don't know about. It just made sense i guess.

As usual, i don't have a very good idea where to start with this except by hitting the books or finding someone who knows about these things.

Oh right, this vibrating bit has to be turned on to work though, that part i forgot about. One isn't constantly transmitting everything, theres a field about you yes but as for vibration "volume" one must turn it up to get a better effect. Thats what i was trying to find out about constructive interference and resonation/frequency strengthening.

I was also thinking about spoon benders and how they (and other psi folkses) talk about making a "connection" with the spoon, as if energy was flowing from you into the spoon. I'm thinking one was to also picture the spoon flowing into you as well, so you can become one that way. OK im begining to doubt the purpose of writing all of this down.

perhaps i shouldn't've.

man, so much in my head lately....i better keep it to myself then. I'll have to write you guys indiviudally later, when i don't feel so insecure about what i'm trying to share. I know i can't share some of it, and its why i can't that makes me wonder. Did i write about, yeah i did write about (or tried to) those feelingsish wacky bits that have been happening to me. Rediscovering part of myself it is.

i really like the 2nd song there, man. And i REALLY don't want to go watch the rest of hostel with those two crazy people watching it on the couch. Which means im stuck on this computer, probably trying to figure out what to do. I wish i could communicate the sheer level of these "flashes" its so intense! I mean, mind and body wavering intense. Its like things around keep reminding me of these things from my youthy past. How i thought about the world in ways that i've laxed in. Relapse. Man intense. Its very, very nice. The tings i used to daydream and dream dream about when i was younger are all coming back, and growing in sharpness and clarity.

right and i just remembered more of what i was thinking of yesterday/today.

Right the double vibration thingy, it was 3 parts all together, two things that vibrate and the vibration itself. I was seeing things as red and blue as examples of ends of the spectrum, and then seeing the third bit too. I was also thinking about this world as a construct rather than just a random occurence, and And wondered if these 3 things had to do with the dimensions we readily sense. 3 DoF (degrees of freedom/6 cardinal directions) and whatnot. But back there was something about the two nodes of vibration, they both are opposites? Or if they are then something happens, i can't remember. I wish i had gotten off the couch last nite to write then when it was all fresh in my mind, my mind is so undependable sometimes. But i wanted to wait to look up stuff to see if i could find any real-world back-up for it. But i haven't yet.

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In other news, tommorow is 9 hours of overtime. thats 16.50 per hour. Times Nine. Thats over a hundred dollars. Yay! I have the same amount of days this coming week! Thats gonna be 18 hours of overtime! w00t! So i'll have plenty of money for this trip in june. I might even be able to get some toys too, we'll see. I'd like to make that frickin finger prototype for my hand project. I'm thinking of using rubber bands to keep the glove part tight on, i dunno.

(mind switch back to other subject again)

Its hard, all this possibly fake nostalgia, all this old dreaming and such coming back, and having none of it be where im at right now. It pisses me off a little if i start to think that i could be there if i had caught on sooner, or made different choices. Im having trouble finding reasons why thinking such things is helpful. so i don't do it much. But im still wanton about it, misty eyed. dreamy. filled with enchantment, wonder, desire. Wishing i was there.

ugh this is a sick movie, oh lawd its the escape part of the movie.

man. Well i'm still thinkin about this stuff. Leave me some feedback if you would. This all made more sense because i had some other things still in my head. As you can readily tell, i'm not high right now and not only does that bother me because its easier to think when i am, it bothers mebecause its really late now and i wonder what would happen if i went and got high anyways.

oh yeah and on those other notes, this cd re-affirms how i feel about tool, and that is that me and them have come to the same conclusions about somethings. I imagined i had to fight them earlier, in a ritual survival ceremony. Yeah. OK enough about that. My twitch reflexes are getting stronger (ie i can use more force at the same speed. Like punching my bag.) Tap your fingers really fast. I can hit the bag that fast, with enough effective force per hit.

haven't figured out how to fly yet. getting there. No flyboy jokes or panama red jokes. lol. thats not the flying im talking about. im gonna go do that in a moment. Then im gonna come back and listen to music, probably radiohead. And look up stuff on the net and try not to watch this dumb movie. note of interest:

more acoustic engineering research
more wearable computing and cyborg/gargoyle research
anything of interest that pops up. perhaps ill jsut sit here with my eyes closed.