Mathetimus

PS: this comes first this time. I won't be giving any secrets away this time. I changed my blog because we got a new monitore here, 19" lcd nice thingy. I want to take one of the old computers and plug my harddrive in, i forgot i could do that (ie it works, lol). so i also ran into people that recognized me from starbux. couple of regulars i thought were really cool (always got mocha breve with a cookie or poundcake). Anywho, i thought it was neat but also a little alarming in a way but i don't think its that bad. I also forgot to write some stuff in here earlier because i was coming down and ya know i forget shit. Oh yeah! Nick give me an email about your housual harrasmant stuff ending, like dates n whatever. i'd like to send a package or something. let me know! ok i should seriously goto bed now its laaaate and i have work in the morning, with no day off til saturday. i need to ask for a break because as much as the money is useful, i find my enjoyment in the wee hours of the night and morning late sleepingness and with daydream brainstorming, ulp my cd player just died because i wasn't using the computer one. ok nite nite. i mean end of PS read teh rest of this post gorramit.


who would have thought i would be spending my time listening to music, toasted like a charcoal poptart, and thinking about math and physics, and mostly all about that vibrations/resonance thought i had about matter.

what i didn't write about that here? perhaps i will.

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for an intermission, i will add that music is so totally sweet when tarmacked. No, wait! A boastingly BETTER intermission rises to the challenge:

I had a sweet idea for something i would do to decorate a place of my own that i lived. Then it progressed to the level of wacky doodom that happens when i wonder if i could market it....Any who the idea was having like wireless stereo system, right? and then these sculptures with built in wireless and say all this music; for instance say a big robot head looking thing with the entire radiohead discogoraphy and all their other recordings. You point your universal remote at it and play a cd, playlist, random or something. Say having different pieces of art for different bands. Then i thought you could put it into anything, even pciture frames. Imagine having like a band poster that came with a cd built into it...Or some big snazzy fancy rotate-a-thon band poster wall thingy that rotated band posters, with all that bands music in it. Possibilities went to ENDLESS as to what you could do with it. Point your remote at the couch, and play some sublime. I actually figured that building something like this would be relatively easy for the most part. Then is tarted daydreaming about how whole media centers would be this way, where you point at the movie rack and play a movie instead of loading it, etc. Then since itd be all wireless, your kid could hide porn in his trashcan or something and just watch it that way, or somoene could hide secret maps and stuff in like their paper weight.

But yeah i thought itd be cool for at least MY whatever you call it i end up spending some longish amount time in.

wow music wins!

this is just a sample of where my mind goes and what it does when i just sit there..

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The math n science bit has to do with a stuff i haven't figured it all out, and if iwrite it down here, i'll forget to think about it later. sorry. But it has to do with fwah. lol!

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its funny, when i think of stuff, i automatically think whatever it is is real, then i think about things to do with it. As if my base nature were to assume things were real. (or assume something at any rate). Even if they aren't (or i think they aren't). But yeah i start thinking of how this new thing relates to everything else, and how it would exist and work and cooperate/mingle with everyone/thing else.

Then i have conversations with uhh, yeah other individuals. Some of them might be me. Whatever. Then i quickly change the conversation to first perspective, and it goes along the same way really. I don't really have a better word that conversation for when its just me thinking about something. Brainstorming i guess you could say, i'm just constantly brainstorming. Yeah.

But lawd only knows where we stuck his chickens! haw, haw, haw!

man music and. Hmm im betting you all were wishing you had something better to read from me. sometimes iw onder if anyone reading this really takes me seriously. except maybe one. i know that person does.

oh yeah! besides sowing seeds of dissent or betterbuddyness, i think im corrupting the baby here! I'm like the only person who says no to it. no really! the little girl is spoiled but not really in a bad way. Shes being paid attention to almost constantly, so shes still really obedient and doesn't even think otherwise. For instance if her mom raises her voice for her to drop something, say because tis dangerous, she drops it. She does right what i tell her to do, for instance if i pusher from behind in a certain direction, she runs that way. I don't do it into walls, just as suggestions to go investigate annoyingly close somewhere else. Then i figured that innocence (as in an innocent outlook/way to live life) is a blind, or automatic action/reaction to something. Its the instinct to love something, for the most part. i think. wow that sounds fagtastic, but you know what i mean. Innocence would be someone automatically trusting you with everything, and following your every command and hardly questiong you. so yeah, to do that someone would need to love you that much, for as much an robotic answer to human love hold water.

man its lateish. and i work like everyday now. But that means 2 days of overtime, or actually about 20. 20 hours of ovetime at 11 + 5.50 = 16.50 an hour. times 20 thats 310.00 dollaronies and cheese. w00t! i'ts like having another partime job really, just more organized. Same hours too, 60 a week. Wonder who thunka that? gawrsh.