Sighlence? Superpowers...

well, this was supposed to get post earlier, around 6 hours ago. But blogspot was down so im postng it now:

Ah, still a little woozy from last nite. in my last post it seemed i used the phrase "all my life". A mistake, how the fuck would i know about life past now? lol! anywho... I'm getting ready to make chicken marsala for my fambly up here, its a good thing my brother called to tell me he remembered to send me that recipe. Of course he forgot after that, lol. Or sent it to the wrong address, or something. Whatever, i remember most of it. The important bits. like a bicycle, or sex. ahhh, last nite... .... huh. me lonely still? thought i was over that. OK i was just ignoring it. Always ready to remedy it, but i know better now than to get a quick fix or a temporary one. Thats all? thats what i tell myself at any rate, maybe its a farce. Just getting that full in the face last nite really shook me. ok it shook me a little. I realized that i don't really like sleeping on a couch and cooking. I'm geting my TAM card (tobacco alcohol management) so i can be a bartender, and thats what im gonna do. At least ill have more money to blow on lapdances, i mean save for later. Thatll help.
I'm not sure if i can communicate this with words, or if its even worth it to attempt. But i grew up a little last nite. Videogames just don't hold it for me in meandering hours, nor TV. I'll probably still sit down to watch some if i've got naught else to do, or if its really late. I was pissed because i paid for an xbox 360 i'm probably not going to play much now. I"ve really been blowing my money away on these last 2 paychecks (this one i didn't want to spend this much on, but i promised my cousin id pay for that xbox etc. even though i changed my mind about it afterwards, still kept my bargain. ah well.) But as for the growing up part. I'm a little more focused(?) you could say. Like a little wake up call from just....just whatever im doing. Surviving.
So we cleaned out the garage and hung that bag today. :) So i'll be out there doing that. I'm gonna do what i can to get that TAM card asap, and be a bartender somewhere, anywhere, asap. ok its time for me to start cooking for my fambly.

uhh, yeah. thats all i've got for today.

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whew! tired. and my appetite is still gumbling, but my stomach is full! weird. Did an experiment with being high earlier, have research on chakra releases to do now.

i should add i had the funny idea earlier today that im a robot from the future, but took some mental damage from the jump, though im equipped with everything a human has, all the knowledge of the higher bits is still in my subconscious.