autokill

ya know, no one sounds more stupid that the ignorant, ESPECIALLY the inexperience ignorant who think they know what they are talking about.

the next step down is the person who just doesn't get it, even when they're in the middle of it. But the loudmouthed advisor who thinks they know better? oi man, they really grip my wagger, a la dogbert style.

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and the freakin photobucket has changed their rules, goddamit, and won't let me put the size background image i want for my blog. Stupid photobucket! now i gotta go somewhere else. lame. thats why this hasn't changed like it usually does.

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i figure that if i can't find an inductance meter, which would be useful but not necessary, what i could really use is just an accurage frequency counter. really accurate, at that point i could just do the math for the inductance.

furthermore, when i leave the house to go shopping, i need to remember to bring a list of some sort, because i still haven't gotten use to using the parts of my memory that would let me remain focused on something out of sight. i might be paying TOO MUCH attention to my surroundings, and that would explain why i forget simple things so often.

i really need to find people to play chess with, and probably do more crosswords. goddamit, seriously. i think im gonna move to a big, big city where there are lots of people within walking distance, because its hard as fuck when everything is so spread out without a vehicle. That, or i gotta get myself a motorcycle when i get the fuck out of here. Sure im doing ok while im here, but this ain't where i want to be. oi.

some part of me is fighting my natural ataraxia, and i need to find it and destroy it. i've set my subconscious on autokill, next time i give shits, i kill them instead.

that should chill me out to where i need to be. i get there sometimes, but its a little hard when you are so distracted all the time.....

how to stop the distractions....perhaps the solution is the opposite, i need to get to a place where i can concentrate better.....and its easier to concentrate when i've no worries about...getting around n whatnot n the like. So anyways.

if i write down my shopping list here, i'll remember it better:

-bare copper wire (siiigh, i wonder why i thought a huge electronics supply warehouse would even have bare copper wire, or an o-scope, or a multimeter that even measured inductance (not even any clamp ones!). They had a 1 farad cap....for 130$. oh well.)
-a decent priced, large cap.
-some batteries
-an accurate frequency counter (don't even need an o-scope, really. or a meter. but a meter would be nice. i could use it to write down lots of numbers in a notebook, and look like a pro. pro-am. race car! weeeeeeeeeee!)
-hole saw bits (large bore drill, look like a toothed cylinder. whatever they are called.)
-my own dremel.

siiiigh.

of course i felt bad asking my cousin to drive me all around town. goddamit, so ..... so detained by the simplest of things. only because i didn't want to cab it, and footing it would've taken too long, and bicycling would've been too unsafe, and the buses....ok i could've biked n bused today i didn't think about that. my bad. oh well.

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now i've gone n made myself grumpy. poo. im gonna eat or something. and give you a call.