equations...requations...

so i had this nifty idea for a computer processor....it would be a crystal that changed light as it passed through it, and depending on where and at what angle you shine the light through it you get a different wavelength. so having a sphere array surrounding a cystal made in this fashion would allow for light to be used in a mathematical sense. different angles would produce different results, and a catalog of codes for what teh different angles n such translate to, which could be used as a programming code, except allowing for other nifty advantages of light carrying states of data (like on or off and/or both) the wavelength could have a change in state can be applied to frequency, being viewed as a wave and a particle, and strength. But yeah as for the code, you could program the light sending outer sphere part with what you wanted it to do (say a math equation) and get an instant answer (well mostly instant, negligibly noticeable non-instant). Or it could be constantly being used for math for doing computer stuff.

ok that sounds silly nevermind.


i've been wondering recently about whether my parents were good people under the curse or negative influence of some kind and that explains all their shit. Or whether they were sent here to destroy me. Did they conciously choose raise me in a fashion against me, or were they just worthless but good spirited (ie that person who breaks shit when really trying to help you.) Whatever, i dunno what knowing that will do really, in a helpful sense. They made a lot of decisions that had fucked up consequences for me. did they know what they were doing, or what? weird.

that fathers in the military bit i wrote about earlier was when i was thinking about how 4 of us all had fathers in the military, and all of us experience the same wacked out stuff. Are there people out there who are trying to help us, or people out there trying to get us? Til i know i treat it like neither, and just do my best to grow on, so that in my strength i can join teh helpers in helping others, or defeat the oppressors! whatever works for you! lol! But yeah, i thought that was interesting. maybe i should start Cobra or something.

I also was thinking about how my sister is just like my dad, and my older brother (waldo) is just like my mother. So I know what parts of both parents get passed on so they are gotten rid of. how interesting. the traits not the parents, btw. no need to get rid of those.

ok i ate, time to go back outside. i love days off.